Way to love myself

Yesterday I started reading Regina Brett book ,,Be the miracle". The journey with her books I started last year when I read ,,God never blinks". Yesterday I read only 7 chapters, but to be honest I cried reading every one of them. Especially one touched my heart was about a little girl that went missing. This story shows that you don't need to be a huge person, you can be just a normal person, working in a petrol station or in a supermarket, and u can save someone's life. For 100 % it's a book that every person needs to read, a least one in a lifetime.

There are days when I feel like the whole day will be a disaster. I don't feel like standing up from a bed, meet with people or even breath. But even that those feeling are taking over me I stand up and try to live my day. The only person who can decide if my day will be amazing is ME. I need to smile, breath and laugh, as much as I can. I appreciate those who are important for me and never forgot that not every day needs to start perfect, but every day can end perfectly.

Sometimes I feel overwhelmed. I'm waking up in the morning, knowing that there's so much to do. I'm scared that if I'll try to do so much in just one day, nothing will go okay. Every time that happened, I just sat down, feeling dizzy, not knowing what to do. But now I know. I okay if I can't do anything 100% okay. I'm just a human, I can make mistakes, I'm not perfect. If there's so much to do, and not enough time, just take a deep breath, think about what is most important. It's important to know your priority. And even if you make a mistake it's okay, it's fine. Just stand up and move on, make it better next time.

Since I was a little girl, I always thought that it's normal to hide your every emotion inside. That it's normal not to show people around you that you are hurt, sad. That it's shameful to cry in front of people, cause that's what makes you vulnerable in their eyes. And when the times come they will use your every weakness against you. But what I thought is that I need to hide my feeling from everyone. My family, my friends, even my own sister. Keeping all those emotions inside of me, every tear, every scream that wanted to come out wasn't making me feel better. But on the contrary, it made me feel even worse. The point of it is that you need to show your emotions not only to people you love but to everyone. You need to tell people if you just don't feel like doing something. That your sad, happy, angry, excited.  You need to share all those emotions. And when that day comes, when you will not keep anything inside, I promise you will feel so much lighter and s...

Being confident, and proud of yourself is a thing that is so hard to achieve. For my whole life, I was so insecure about myself, about my body, about how I talk, or what kind of clothes I'm wearing. But I think the time comes to become a proud woman, who can speak for herself, dress how she likes, without thinking if someone will judge her. The woman who will do everything for her happiness. I want to show every insecure girl that she has a voice and that voice matters. That she doesn't need anyone to be happy, just herself is enough. That even though your whole world will be crashing you can still push forward.