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Not okay 😓

How one person can make me feel too bad. Make my days so miserable. Make me not think about anything else but this. 

This week I had my thesis defense, and as you can tell it didn't go very well. I was so well prepared, but my BA thesis promoter didn't want me to pass, and I know it. 

He is an asshole, who wanted to prove that I can't do it. And I failed, so badly. I know that the other two persons who were there during my defense wanted to help me. But he didn't, he wanted me to fail. 

It's so sad that one person wants another to fail, to feel miserable, to feel not smart enough, not good enough.





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